Writing for…I’m not sure.

Writing for…I’m not sure.

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It’s been a while but I’m back writing. But this time I’m not really sure what I’m writing about. All I know is that I really miss writing.

So here goes, firstly, since my last post, I’ve got a job, yay! It’s back in the Environmental sector but using my office skills which is pretty great and it’s part time, which was a reality I needed to face. Full time work was just too much, no matter how much I try and ignore my health.

Anyway, it’s a good job with lovely people and although it’s been a bit of a baptism of fire – that’s the downside that comes from working in a small team, I like the fact I’m working with people who value me, my skills and my input into my role. It’s refreshing to be told when I’m doing things well and not just made to feel like I’m never doing things well enough. I’m still my own worst critic but that wasn’t going to change overnight.

The move to Peterborough has been hugely beneficial for both myself and Aidan. We’ve had more time for ourselves and are really enjoying making our house a home. Overall though, we’ve made a really great bunch of new friends, something we haven’t really been able to do properly for 4 years. Thanks to joining the local church and associated house group, we’ve met a big group of people around our age and at a similar time in their lives to us so it’s really, really nice to have that support network.

We’re also enjoying the opportunities to explore a new part of the world, one neither of us has really had much connection with in the past. We’ve been up to Lincoln and across to Norwich and Thetford Forest amongst other things and will hopefully do more of that over the next weeks and months. You never know, I might even write about it!

Overall though, I know I want to write more, but I’m struggling to strike the balance between writing for me and just churning out the most boring and mundane things going on in my lovely but quite frankly nothing-particularly-interesting life. I have no need to commit the mundane to the metaphorical paper, but I miss sitting here and letting the words flow.

I’m hoping that soon I will find that balance that I need and create something I’m proud of, but also something that was purely for my own benefit first and foremost, not for the benefit of trying to gain some kind of following or recognition.

Firstly though, I think I need to create the time to just sit down with my laptop and even give myself the opportunity to see if I have anything to say. I’m not committing to anything more than creating the opportunity for now.

Even writing this has helped, it’s made the fire in my belly for writing burn a little brighter and made me think about what I want from this. It’s good, overall, things are pretty good.

Finding my ‘purpose’ again

Finding my ‘purpose’ again

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This title sounds very dramatic but I couldn’t think of a softer way to say things. Once again, I’ve come back to my blog when I feel like I need it most. So much for trying to post more regularly again now, we all know it’s a lie every time I say it. An unintentional lie, I hasten to add, but this time I’m not gonna say it! Maybe this will be the first post of a regular posting spree, maybe it’s not.

Anyway, I’m back to blogging because I need to write and find the comfort I get from blogging again.

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Reset

Reset

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Hello there! It’s been a while, hasn’t it?! I’m not going to apologise, I am a little sad it’s been so long but I’m back and hopefully able to dedicate a bit more time over the next weeks and months to my writing, which excites me.

What happened? Well, life happened. I did really well churning out content in March and I was so happy with all that, but to be honest I’d given up social media and funnily enough had a lot more time on my hands *hangs head in shame* and I was in a proper routine. I went away in April which threw things off kilter and then at the end of the month some big changes happened. I’m not going into details but since then I’ve been metaphorically flailing around not quite sure what to do. I’ve had some pretty big emotions going on with it all too so it’s been hard, I’m not gonna hide that.

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Loneliness: Why as adults do we never admit when we’re lonely?

Loneliness: Why as adults do we never admit when we’re lonely?

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When was the last time you heard someone say ‘I’m lonely’? You just don’t hear it do you, but from various conversations I’ve had about this over the last few years, everyone gets lonely. Humans as a species are made to live in groups, we’re not solitary creatures and it goes against our nature to live in such a manner. As with everything there’s an exception to every rule and there are some people who live completely solitary lifestyles and if that suits them, that’s fine by me. I’m not here to say they shouldn’t live like that at all, but it doesn’t mean that everyone else enjoys being alone.

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Slovenia – Day 2: Trains and boats and… walking!

Slovenia – Day 2: Trains and boats and… walking!

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Day 2 of Slovenia wasn’t blessed with good weather to start with, although first thing it didn’t look terrible. Overcast but ok, I was confident my leather jacket would be fine. It was not fine! I got really rather rained on towards the end of our morning but of course, after I bought an umbrella from one of the tourist shops, it didn’t rain again all day. Typical. Anyway, although it wasn’t the best morning weather wise, we had a great time at Slovenia’s Railway Heritage museum before a sunny afternoon walking around the city.

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Finding your Happy Place; and remembering to visit.

Finding your Happy Place; and remembering to visit.

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Everyone has a ‘happy place’, much as it’s a clichéd saying, it’s true. Everyone has somewhere that they go to, to escape, to breathe, to forget about their problems for a while, or at least have somewhere to process said problems and to enjoy some time with only themselves for company. Sometimes though, I find that life gets busy and takes over and you never visit this place anymore. Or if you do, it’s rarely and not necessarily on your own and therefore it doesn’t serve the above purpose.

If I’m being honest, whilst still keeping a sense of vagueness so my entire life isn’t plastered over the internet, this past week has not been my best one. It went downhill from last Monday onwards and with a few shocks and turns, is hopefully moving forwards again. On Monday evening though, I came home feeling utterly miserable and with no Aidan at home, I decided to go back to my happy place.

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The Underground Overground – My Husband’s Tube Challenge.

The Underground Overground – My Husband’s Tube Challenge.

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A bit of a different post type this time. I want to talk about the amazing challenge my Husband is undertaking to raise money for charity this year. Yes, I am biased but I also think it’s a pretty epic challenge and deserves for me to shout from rooftops about it because I’m really damn proud of him.

So what’s the challenge? Over the course of this year Aidan will be walking all 11 lines of the Underground in London, Overground. It’s approximately 343 miles and he’s aiming to do it within 1 year. You can see all the caveats, rules etc in the first post we put on the website we’ve put together for the challenge here.

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Slovenia – Day 1: The City of Dragons

Slovenia – Day 1: The City of Dragons

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Hello! It’s been a while hasn’t it? I’ve not had much time lately, but I’ve finally had a chance to sort through photos and get the first of my Slovenia posts up and running. As I said last week, Aidan, my parents and I were in Slovenia the other week and honestly, it was the best week ever!

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A blog post to me, from me

A blog post to me, from me

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Hello! I’ve been away for a couple of weeks because I was super busy just after Easter getting ready for the holiday I’ve just come back from. I went to Slovenia with my husband and parents for a six-night stay and it was Uh-May-Zing. Much as I’d love to dive straight into tales of the incredible time I’ve had, we only got back to our house today and I’ve not had a chance to sort photos, organise my thoughts etc yet so I’ll be getting to that this week.

In the mean time now that we’re back I’ve realised that I’ve been really lax in taking care of myself the past few weeks. I started the new year doing really well, I was taking good care of my body and mind and feeling better, managing to ride the winter blues better than I have done the past few years but as my life got busier this past month or so, I’ve been letting myself regress and I need to get back on track. It’s not going to be about me having a hard time, by the way, it’s some tips and tricks of things to do to look after myself again.

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The best laid plans… Easter 2018

The best laid plans… Easter 2018

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Last weekend’s plan should have been very simple. Go to re-enactment event at Basing House, Hampshire on Friday afternoon. Return home from said event on Monday afternoon, tired, probably soggy but having had a lot of fun. Turns out, that’s not quite what happened.

I spent Friday morning being lazier than I should have been and taking far longer than I should have done to get ready and pack the car. To be honest, the weekend all started going slowly awry from the point that I was dragged down the stairs from top to bottom by my own kit bag…

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