Hello! I say ‘I’ve finally got time to write again’ when we’re already 5 weeks into lockdown, but I guess it’s that I’ve got both time and inspiration again. Lockdown and this bizarre situation has also made me focus in on a couple of things too, which link hand in hand to form this blog post and the basis for new ones too.
Firstly, the thing that has struck me is once life and normality start to return, we shouldn’t rush back to living in the exact same, chaotic, unsustainable way again and should be careful to try and take the parts that were still keeping us happy during this weird time, and leave behind the stuff that wasn’t. I’m not saying we all quit our jobs and live in communes, but I’ve seen a lot of people saying they are looking forward to a ‘new normal’ and having been able to stop, breathe, take stock, they will be trying to reprioritise as we move forward from this. I am very much in this camp and looking forward to trying to live a more sustainable life, both in terms of my impact on the world around me, but a life that sustains me too, instead of making me feel like I’m always playing catch up, running me into the ground mentally and physically.
I am also aware and grateful for all the keyworkers that probably haven’t had a chance to stop, think, breathe, you are all do an incredible job and I’m so grateful for the dedication of every single one of you.
Secondly, having been entirely alone in the house for nearly 5 weeks now, it’s made me realise how much music means to me, it’s been my constant companion during this time. It’s always been a huge part of my life. My music tastes are pretty wide ranging and although I have an unhealthy obsession with Country Music and I feel that’s where my heart truly lies, I’m a big fan of lots of other genres and artists too. Naturally, my music taste has adapted and shifted as my life has, but I still regularly listen to the albums I grew up with, both my favourites from my parents collection and influence, and those that were released when I was young.
I’ve never really known what I want to ‘do’ when I grow up, I know that’s common and I don’t have to know, but one thing that’s always been at the back of my mind is having a job that is to do with music. I’ve always been too scared to pursue it, it’s always felt to me it would be deemed to unreachable, unreliable and unrealistic, but it’s a feeling that’s been ticking away at the back of my mind for over 15 years now and maybe it’s time to start to let that part of me come to the forefront. I love writing, I want to have time for it more and I have only ever wanted to write about tangible things, when I actually have something to say and music will always be there to provide me with a topic to write about.
Don’t worry family, I’m not immediately quitting my job to find a career in music without any prep, basis etc. In fact, I really enjoy my job, I’m not sure I even have the long term goal to make it my ‘job’ but I do aim to fulfill the desire to write more about music, share my suggestions and get more involved in a world I already love.
I often send new music suggestions to a particular friend who shares my love of contemporary folk music (a genre I really should spend more time with! It used to be the only thing I listened to!) and the other day she replied with this image which made me so inexplicably happy.
I’m very much a ‘saw this and thought of you’ kinda person which I know freaks some people and cheers others, so here is my opportunity to do that out into the open I guess.
And finally, when watching Ashley McBryde (one of my absolute FAVOURITES) interviews when a bit tired and emotional the other night, she said something which really resonated with me, she said, ‘If anybody has told you not to pursue what sets your soul on fire, they are wrong’. Now luckily, no other person has told me that, I didn’t give them a chance because I told myself that before I ever said aloud that one of the things that makes me happiest is writing about music, so here goes, I’m telling the voice that put me off that it’s wrong, and in a time of setting off after the things that makes you happiest, here goes.
Anyway, this is just a little spill post about what’s been on my mind lately, and I’m about to write a proper music related post for the first time in YEARS and I’m looking forward to it, I feel like it might finally be achievable for me to write regularly again.