Re-adjusting

Re-adjusting

Holme Fen – Big Skies!

Today, for the first time since the end of March, I looked in my Filofax. Usually the small, treasured item that organises my life and it looked at most days, it has been left untouched for the best part of 3 months. There were some things scribbled out in it, from when Covid-19 first started cancelling all our plans, but I had stopped at the middle of June, unsure at the time how long the virus would last. I don’t think any of us were really sure and June let alone September still felt like a long time away, so cancelling things beyond June seemed silly. I wasn’t naive in thinking they were definitely going to be fine, but I also didn’t know so it was worth leaving them for the time being.

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Why I have Black Women to thank for great curly hair.

Why I have Black Women to thank for great curly hair.

I’m not usually one to boast about the compliments I receive. I usually receive them awkwardly like a typical, dorky, anxious millennial, but if I was asked a direct question, which feature do you receive the most compliments about, it is my hair. I am lucky to have volume-rich, curly hair and as I try and tackle my own self confidence issues, it’s a feature I am proud of and like about myself.

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Violence will always be prevalent in a world that never truly learns its lessons.

Violence will always be prevalent in a world that never truly learns its lessons.

I’m tired of seeing quite clearly hollow posts and comments that only utter ‘violence is not the answer’ and words to that effect from people (and let’s be honest, mainly white people) in the few days since the tragic death of George Floyd.

I’d like to make it crystal clear that the posts calling for peaceful protest and constructive action are not the posts I mean here. These posts are the best posts in this time. 

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Surviving Well

Surviving Well

So yesterday was tough, it turns out I am very unlikely to have a job at the end of this after all. It’s a bitter pill to swallow,  because of how much I like my job and my colleagues. This is a sad set of circumstances for a company who have looked after me well so my only resentment is towards the circumstances that have caused this, not my place of work. That being said, I know overall I cannot in any way blame myself for this and I am leaving with hugely increased confidence in my abilities. I owe them a lot and will be parting on sad, but in no way bitter terms.

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Lockdown Life – Learning to do what matters to you

Lockdown Life – Learning to do what matters to you

Hello! I say ‘I’ve finally got time to write again’ when we’re already 5 weeks into lockdown, but I guess it’s that I’ve got both time and inspiration again. Lockdown and this bizarre situation has also made me focus in on a couple of things too, which link hand in hand to form this blog post and the basis for new ones too.

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Life is better with routine – why do I find this so hard?!

Life is better with routine – why do I find this so hard?!

So I’ve been thinking a lot about routine and structure recently. Since starting my new job at the beginning of June, I’ve been trying to work in a vague routine. Wake at 7, out the door at 8:30am, back home at 5:30pm and depending on the day of the week, either back out for things in the evening or at home trying to balance between some time spent doing housework and making time for things I enjoy such as blogging, knitting, watching tv etc. Wrap everything up by 9:45pm so I can tidy up for half an hour or so, then I have 45 minutes (ish) to meditate and get ready for bed. This is for weekdays by the way, weekends are a bit more anything goes.

The waking up, going to bed, leaving and returning to the house times tend to be adhered to pretty well but everything else seems to go out of the window half the time. Yet, I know I feel best when I’m in a routine and being equal parts productive and resting. I am fully aware that real life cannot be portioned up into neat little blocks of time, things come out of the blue and plans change, but why, when it’s not due to out of the blue things, do I still seem to let my routine slip, knowing full well this will set me up to fail?

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Doing more of what you love

Doing more of what you love

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Hello again, it’s been a while (again…). I am hopefully back for a little while at least with this blog.

For those that are new here, hello, welcome! It’s nice to have you here. I say that I’m going to get back into writing repeatedly, but never do, so we’ll see how long this lasts! I’ll let you into a secret though, I have actually got a lot more posts lined up already! So that’s all very exciting.

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Writing for…I’m not sure.

Writing for…I’m not sure.

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It’s been a while but I’m back writing. But this time I’m not really sure what I’m writing about. All I know is that I really miss writing.

So here goes, firstly, since my last post, I’ve got a job, yay! It’s back in the Environmental sector but using my office skills which is pretty great and it’s part time, which was a reality I needed to face. Full time work was just too much, no matter how much I try and ignore my health.

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Finding my ‘purpose’ again

Finding my ‘purpose’ again

August Goals

This title sounds very dramatic but I couldn’t think of a softer way to say things. Once again, I’ve come back to my blog when I feel like I need it most. So much for trying to post more regularly again now, we all know it’s a lie every time I say it. An unintentional lie, I hasten to add, but this time I’m not gonna say it! Maybe this will be the first post of a regular posting spree, maybe it’s not.

Anyway, I’m back to blogging because I need to write and find the comfort I get from blogging again.

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